The period of the evening between daylight and darkness

Feel that i am experiencing a change in my life.

Getting used to the work timing and feel that i am lifeless during the weekday.

My new colleague feels that i enjoy my work a lot.

I was pretending not really, but in fact, i give my best in whatever im doing.

It is challenging during the day as in we are craking our head to help people.

We help in building the models career.

The more money they earn, the happier we are. =)

For those who really wanted it so much and yet not going anyway really break out heart.

We are sad that we couldn't help them, though we tried really hard.

Wanted to start out a strategic planning to work out something that really give a blast!

This month I am going to start financial planning.

It is not about saving only also setting a realistic goal to achieve something in the target period of time. i can't really see too far now. 5 years or 10 years??? NO.

The time that i'm looking right now is 1 year only.

I need to see myself more stable in terms of expenses and income.

I dont have skills to get employer to hire me.

All i have is a big fat mouth to talk and talk and talk.

That does not bring me anywhere.

The true life begins during the weekend.

Signed up for the Bible study class hoping to experience a complete break-through in life.

Everyday passes so so fast, as i am anticipating the weekend to come where i can have a breathe of living air.

I can't wait for another weekend that is approaching.

Booked my flights and i couldnt wait to go to the place that gives me the feeling i'm at home.

This might be the final time i am going back, maybe not.

Well, some thing has been stirring up in my mind lately.

A shadow of a person keeps on appearing in my mind.

Thinking if it was God's plan, or I am thinking too much.

Well, i need more sleep... i really need to sleep... 14 hours a day is no big deal =p

zzzzzzzzzzz

This picture was downloaded from the owner's site without permission.

(I felt there was a touch of humanity and love thus used this picture to share a few words)

Date: 26 DEC 2007, Doi Saket (Chiang Mai)

Dreaming of the moment to be kept for future for human to live with love, Sun, Nature without anything materialistic stuffs.When I visited them for the first time.. Since then many have grown up a lot.. And many young babies have joined.. (It is sad that many of their parents killed each other due to confusion by Drugs.. Some children have seen their parents killing each others.. So that some lost their words.. Can't speak anymore.. Life is so cruel. THey are so innocent and pure.. Why we human is so selfish? How to sustain the whole world if we think of ourselves only...I wonder a lot these days.. ) And I regret so much about my life and what I have done in past.. Drinking, Partying, buying like mad.. Just looking for my material satisfaction... Sex, Money, Status and so on... Endless.. More sex, More party, more champaigne, more clothes, More trunks... Really shameful... And I really thought if I am deserved to life any longer... I have been taking advantage of my fortunate life.. I will try to born newly from now on. And my next mission is to buy land for them in 2008. Currently they are renting from government. We worry if the government take back the land for any commercial usage. Then all kids will lose their homes again... I am thinking to have some charity dinner or something to raise money for them..

If anyone can kindly assist me for this project, It will be very much appreciated!!

Children are so gorgeous!! I seriously can't believe that they do not have anyone to rely on in this world! I am so old.. But still so weak and always try to look for someone or something to rely on... Their smiles always give me a lot of hope and a lot of inspiration for me to live well as a human. Not by materialistic wants but for some simple life and simple reason which is Love.. For last one and half year, They have kept teaching me and scolding me... I will try to change myself to be more considerate and moderate.. Be simple and be humble... Ha ha ha.. You know what I mean? So please remind me if I behave too much again! OK?

They take care pigs, chickens, Cows and all by themselves.. Each boy and girl has own role to do every morning 5am before they go to school.. Cooking, Washing clothes, feeding animals, taking care of fields for vegetables... I myself never even cook for my breakfast.. Always wake up late and just go to work... Take taxi and complain... Shamless...Useless...

They know how to kill pigs.. It is very cruel but we human have been doing killing all animals for our everyday life. I only do not kill by myself but I eat everyday some animals... Sometime i never appreciate all those life in my everyday life. Because I forget there was a life of each food. even eggs, chikens, pork and beefs.. Even all vegetables got life. We are having those precious life everyday for our meals.. This was the first time I really thank lives in this world. And I have been trying not to abuse and take granted. Small portion or just enough portion is good enough for my life...

P/S: I have never dealt with this person before but his name roars everytime when we deal with his staffs. Everybody in the industry know who he is. I truly understand that we learn different things from different people. There are so much for me to learn, the bright and the dark of the world. World civilisation is not about art, architectures, manuscripts, money,economics,development, history, cultures, languages, but it is all about HUMAN!

Humanity is something that we do, we manifest, we thought of with an underlying action for the good of human race in perpetual.

ACS IPOH 5B Batch 2003

(standing from left to right: wengfoong @ rongfoong, boonleong @ taufu, swee sum @ fei sum, yew fong@ jihad, yee soon,kon lim, gideon, wai kit, soon wen@ hor fun)

(sitting from left to right: tze san @ lizard @ ah lee @ ALI, wai mun, koi kit, chee fung)

The best moment i ever had was back in secondary school. All the fame was back in secondary school. Excel in competitions and some how in academics too: champion, runner up, second runner up...Well...afterall I'm glad i have been through those years. =)

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Primary:

I was thinking what was the use of studying as i didn't even know how to do my primary science paper 2 where we were required to answer in written form...not MCQ. i was so rebellious back in primary 2-3.i don't even dare to mention it....well, rili paiseh and don't want to shock you guys...found my 'passion' singing in choir when i was in primary 6. at that time we sung in Ipoh City Hall for the Sultan of Perak. but our voice were pre-recorded in RTM studio days before to prevent us singing out of tune.Michelle Yeoh came to my school as VIP for the computer lab opening ceremony. graduated from primary with 3B and 2C in UPSR. for chinese school UPSR is like something bigger than whatever university examinations as it will determine if they can go to secondary 1 or stay back for transition classes for 1 year. FORTUNATELY, mine was a national school and i straight went to my secondary 1.

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Secondary:

I did not know how to do fractions in my math! my english was like shit...my malay was not good.my science was more than F grade. i was in the last class and the Malay language teacher named me as TM - tarzan malaysia as she heard my voice laughing and talk. Well, she was exaggerated. the staff room was just opposite my class and from there she could hear the whole class, even though we were whispering. Well, it was a great experience...Being so naughty. Started my ladder of fame - fame for myself only -perasan! joined the uniform body st. john and was a very active member. attending camps and courses and competition. secondary 1 was the turning point of my life. Got to know 2 people that have changed my perception as my named was tarzan (sakai)...so i could see the world from their point of view.

I started to wonder...why he can do well in studies and they were like memorising the whole history book and they could do maths so well. at that time i didn't even know what a reference book and module exercises were...back then we were using SASBADI (secondary 1-3).from them i realised that i need to study. there was once during the assembly and one of my school mate, benjamin, he fell on the ground and broke his arm at Horley Hall by playing chock-slam learned from the then famous show...WWF!as a member of st john then...the first-aider...i was there to bandage his arm with the rest of my senior before sending him to hospital. later of the year was chosen to be one of the team member of the competition team representing my school...i was a substitute then. =(

Came secondary 2!!!! Results was not so good, but i saw there was improvement. I spent the whole night studying my science which i have never studied, one day before my final and i score around like 70% and it was a B...i never had a B before for goodness sake... on saturday we filled our time by attending tranings under st john and after that we will go to the swimming pool to continue our training as life guard. some saturdays in between we will attend our junior librarian meetings with our higher secondary seniors. we will have our duty days during the weekday before our afternoon school session starts.oh ya...tae kwando during saturday evening and sunday morning with weng foong.but it was only for a year...got a yellow belt and joined 1 time for pattern competition and sparing...LOST la!!!!

secondary 3 came...with my then best friends we started a competition team trained by a senior in secondary 3. we were very serious though some time what we say might kill my senior...hahha...WOW, unexpectedly champion for first aid long case and runner up for marching competition in year 2000!! we tried our luck again the following year...but we only managed to get second runner up in marching in the states. when were we were not practising, on wednesday we will go to Ipoh parade to play bowling under the school accounts. cheaper!

At the same time me and my two best friends joined the school choir and we were so into it. We went for rehearsal everyday after school at the same time juggling with our competition and studies and playing play station (dance dance revolution by three of us and a few of RPG game by weng foong. at waikit's house.). Our choir team only managed to get second runner up.it was sad...but indeed other teams were greater... PRM result was great 6A 1B (Kemahiran Hidup--this subject really suck up)...used to study midnight till early morning and go to school then. it resulted me to be so fresh at night and so deadly in the morning nowadays...

Our spirit in choir kept burning but our st john spirit kept going down...we were no longer in librarian as everyone try to focus more on studies when were in secondary 4.

In secondary 4, was having difficulties in additional maths and physics...it was atrocious!!!!my english never improve then...choir in second runner up again...my result for PMR was not good enough to get me into first class...had to work harder!!!!

Secondary 5, at last...i have climbed to the highest point (english still sucks)...i had doubt in myself if i can perform as good as the others...it was so stressfull...joined the school malay language debate team (2 chinese and 1 indian) and got champion in the district and consecutively 5 times best speaker for the whole competition.i need to thank my malay language tuition teacher and the coach of the team. I have improved my malay language like few hundread percent from my original level (english never improve)...i was so happy where our team and my classmate shared happiness together though our team lost during the states level. before the SPM examination, we got so many tips coming from everywhere from different schools...it was so ridiculous and it did came out in exam...it was so accurate for chemistry, biology, and physics paper...well, though no straight As...it was merely 2A1 5A2 and 2B3 (physics and add maths -KANASAI!!!)...in fact i don't deserve the results as it was all because of we have the tips...

Everbody in my class were aiming to score straight A1...most of them did...everybody studied very hard because that was the only chance to apply for government-sponsor scholarships to study medicine...engineering...not my aim..hahha...had thought of pursuing a law degree..a medicine degree in forensic... after i knew we need to study 4 dictionary-like text book for history, i have give my law degree dream a miss...thought of going into forensic field...so got into Biology class in Form 6 but eventually i ended up in business stream when in uni major in finance. i was never a valedictorian in academics too bad...hahhaa

Wow...so fast...i came to an end of my secondary school. i don't know what more to say...the attached pictures has brought back the old memories that we all have. where i am? i was the one taking picture! =)

Hope everyone have a great christmas and new year celebration ahead!!!

Looking forward to catch up with old mates during CNY!

P/S: this is a random write-up from the previous walk of my life. =)

(outside office)

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